Wednesday April 1 2014

How I wish this past 2 weeks had been just a cruel April Fools Day joke. My baby girl went from severe depression to acute mania with psychosis. She was hearing voices and seeing things. The voices were telling her to kill herself. She was obsessed with her Facebook Status and told me she was "Facebook famous"... that she had 9,990 followers.  That the voices coming through her headphones were all saying "don't like her status... she's ugly... she's horrible".  Unfortunately, my worst fears have come to pass; my daughter is also Bipolar. This shitty disease has been passed to yet another generation.  She was hospitalized for 10 days; it took a full 8 days for the voices to start "fading away" and now she says they are gone.  But are they really? Or is she just saying that so she could get out of the hospital?  I don't know... watchful waiting is the name of the game now.  I pray to God she learns from my mistakes and history doesn't repeat itself. That she stays on her medications even when she might think she doesn't need them anymore. She will be 18 in 5 months... then she won't have to listen to me anymore if she doesn't want to. Please God, look after my baby. Help her make wise choices in all she does. And help me come to terms with this added stressor in my life.